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 I've done it. Officially finished my bachelor's. Passed Orgo 2. I'm exhausted. 

I have had a few days off, gotten my head together a bit better. I'm still not 100%. I think a lot of this is that all my friends are gone, off to their 'homes', but also just that I don't do well without productivity. I've been working on my FTH work, scrapped two drafts. Working on my resume. Slowly building anxiety about getting a 'real job'. Normal stuff. 

Still not great mentally or emotionally, though. 

I'd been hoping that once school was over, I'd have a little more brain-space. Time to get my shit together, so to speak. Instead I'm still stressed to hell, it's just a non-specific type of stress that I can't address by finishing a school project. 

I really miss my friends.

In the end, I'm stuck doing some of the same avoidance coping mechanisms I did before: read fanfic, refuse to watch the endings of series', etc. I would do therapy but until I have a 'real job', I can't afford it, so until then I'm just waiting. Kinda sucks. I want a purpose again, but I don't want to job hunt for it. I hate job hunting.

Date: 2019-05-11 08:06 am (UTC)
out_there: B-Day Present '05 (Default)
From: [personal profile] out_there
Job hunting is the worst. *sympathies*

Date: 2019-05-11 01:48 pm (UTC)
novembermond: crawly and aziraphale (Default)
From: [personal profile] novembermond
congrats on finishing your bachelor. in my experience it takes a while for your brain to come down from something like that. don't stress it.
job hunting sucks ass. I can only offer you a virtual hug.

Date: 2019-05-11 08:45 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] smallhobbit
Congratulations on finishing your bachelor's!

Date: 2019-05-13 12:49 am (UTC)
argentnoelle: purple tree (Default)
From: [personal profile] argentnoelle
Hope you feel better soon - (& congratulations!)

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