Exhaustion from Rest

[alchemistdoctor]

 I've done it. Officially finished my bachelor's. Passed Orgo 2. I'm exhausted. 

I have had a few days off, gotten my head together a bit better. I'm still not 100%. I think a lot of this is that all my friends are gone, off to their 'homes', but also just that I don't do well without productivity. I've been working on my FTH work, scrapped two drafts. Working on my resume. Slowly building anxiety about getting a 'real job'. Normal stuff. 

Still not great mentally or emotionally, though. 

I'd been hoping that once school was over, I'd have a little more brain-space. Time to get my shit together, so to speak. Instead I'm still stressed to hell, it's just a non-specific type of stress that I can't address by finishing a school project. 

I really miss my friends.

In the end, I'm stuck doing some of the same avoidance coping mechanisms I did before: read fanfic, refuse to watch the endings of series', etc. I would do therapy but until I have a 'real job', I can't afford it, so until then I'm just waiting. Kinda sucks. I want a purpose again, but I don't want to job hunt for it. I hate job hunting.

Comments

[out_there]

Job hunting is the worst. *sympathies*

[novembermond]

congrats on finishing your bachelor. in my experience it takes a while for your brain to come down from something like that. don't stress it.
job hunting sucks ass. I can only offer you a virtual hug.

[smallhobbit]

Congratulations on finishing your bachelor's!

[argentnoelle]

Hope you feel better soon - (& congratulations!)