Tired

[alchemistdoctor]

This week has been the first week of my last term of Uni. And it wasn’t bad, it wasn’t good, it just was, but I’m tired.

I’m in a course called Coming Out, and it’s actually taught by two lesbians which is v nice considering I was dreading the idea of it being taught by a Straight Cis Person (TM). But I don’t like the way they’ve defined coming out, and they’re very much the sort of people to be like and how do you feel about that, and as a scientist I don’t like that approach to things like sexuality and mental illness and politics, all of which their course focuses on. So anyway I’m very unsure about it and I need to write up a proper essay on it, but I’m already mentally tired and writing more sounds like a Thing I Don’t Want To Do.

All of this to say that I don’t have a real reason to feel so Bleh, but I do feel Bleh, and not having a reason is making it worse.

Comments

[tozka]

Feeling like bleh and not knowing why is the worst! I hope your bleh flees the scene soon enough. :)

[felinejumper]

upsettingly for both of us, I was immediately like "...write an essay on it!! I care!!" but then I, you know, got to the next line.

<3 hope the bleh-ness lasts only as long as it needs to

[alchemistdoctor]

I'm hoping to pass the bleh-phase and write an essay up this week-end, because I do want to have something written before I go in next week. I did manage to get up enough energy to email the profs and be like 'hey, can we meet and talk about this, because it's been on my mind,' and they seemed really receptive to that, so I'm hoping I can have my thoughts put together before we meet.

[felinejumper]

UGH that's very hard; I'm glad you got the email out & are having the conversation-- yay, possibly-receptive professors!

Also, omg did I say already what an interesting class title? What an interesting class title! And what an inherently difficult one to be teaching—the culture gaps between generations (on the scale of even 5 years) and all the types of coming out and !! It's cool.

[alchemistdoctor]

Goal for today is to type up a basic essay on this, so hopefully that'll be up later.

And yes! It's not a class I'd normally take. It feels very odd to me, as a queer individual, to take a class that tries to deconstruct some of what that means -- like a cross between group therapy and sociology but I'm graded, which is a very strange position to be in.

However, the two ladies teaching seem to be very nice and they've made it clear that grading is based on effort, not on the opinions shown in the assignments, and I think that approach does a lot to mitigate some of the anxiety I held toward being 'graded' on assignments that touched on personal experiences.

[roadmagician]

i also feel Bleh come, let us commiserate. hope you stop feeling bad soon. :/

[vienne1196]

Sometimes feelings don't have a reason. I'm sorry you're not feeling well.